what should I have done

I should have reacted to the situation rationally. Doing a speech normally. Retreating would make me just powerless. My emotion won. I did not think about my belief, but how I wanted to act. It is true that they did not care, and I am not going to belong to that place. This may be a logical, but I cannot ingnore my responsibility to speak. I could do much better. Anyway, I do not want to be in that group. I don't care. I decide where to belong. I try to discover which of the environment better for me.